Tuesday, January 11, 2011

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I wanted to take a quick moment to reflect on the blessings of late. 

Jon is just starting a research rotation until April 1st, and this will provide him a much needed time of rest and will allow him to finish his research project for this year – a huge feat!

I have survived my first two days back at school. 
This is no big deal-except that I am having Ellie withdrawals, and getting back into the crazy pace of life has been challenging.

Ellie is crawling everywhere, and continues to be the most joyful and happy baby I know!  She is loving being more mobile, and is itching to walk and be even more independent.  She keeps us laughing daily with her baby gibberish and contagious giggles!  She’s also growing like a weed and has become very adventurous in her food preferences.  She pretty much wants to try anything Jon and I are eating- a pleasant change to a temporary season of pickiness.

I am in my 20th week of pregnancy-the halfway point.  Whoo hoo!  We are so excited to have another baby girl on the way, and I have just started to really feel her kicking like crazy!  There is no greater feeling.  I am feeling pretty great overall, just tired.  But, I am glad to be busy.

Other than that, we’re just moving along, enjoying life and God’s many blessings as they come.

Oh, and spring break is only 41 school days away!  Not that I’m counting! :)


Thursday, January 6, 2011

The Little Things in Life

Oftentimes, it’s the little things in life.  I ordered a CD from my childhood that I remember loving and wanted Ellie to have the same opportunity.  It’s no longer being reproduced (cause I’m that old apparently), but thankfully I found it online.  What did we do before the Internet… oh, that’s right - read, not spend as much time on the computer. J

So, I couldn’t wait to open it!  Jon thought it funny that I was so excited about “Ellie’s” CD.  Ignoring his sarcasm, I grabbed Ellie, and popped it in the computer.  Knowing that Ellie didn’t yet have the same attachment to the nostalgic songs, I had no expectations.  But, she LOVED it!  Of course, she’s a very musically inclined kid.  She loves music and dancing, and there is nothing sweeter than watching her shake her little tushy and shimmy her shoulders!  My mom says I used to do the same thing when I was a baby.  It’s so special to see our kids displaying their “mini-me” character traits.

I love that I was exposed to so much music - and wonderful music at that, as a child.  I have the fondest memories of my Dad popping in a soundtrack score from a classic movie like The Mission, Glory, or Avalon to name a few.  He would work at his computer while we kids did our homework.  I remember at the time thinking, (and saying, I’m sure) “Dad, this music is boring!” And yet, I grew to have such a great appreciation of movie scores and classical music.  I am so thankful that my Dad introduced me to this wonderful part of my life.  Jon and I are always talking about the movie scores we love-Braveheart, Pride and Prejudice, etc.

This was just one of many times I can recall being exposed to music by my parents.  We lived back in the days of “bring a book, or a card game to keep you busy” when we’d venture out on long family vacations in the car.  We never had a TV or portable DVD player to watch movies.  I’m sure my parents would have benefited from the lack of bickering and overall noise, and yet, there is something I feel lost in today’s culture BECAUSE of the fact that we have so many “quick fixes” available to make life more “comfortable”.  What so wrong with being uncomfortable once in while, anyway.  (No Lord, that’s not an invitation). J  I remember being frustrated that we couldn’t watch a movie, and yet-in those times, my siblings and I were forced to be creative, to think outside the box for entertainment.  We would have never listened to the endless Lord of the Rings/Hobbit series on audiotape, or arranged and sang “White Christmas” in 3 part harmony while driving through the bleak darkness of Oregon on our annual summer trip to Washington.  Or read the countless “choose your own ending” books.  Those were awesome!  Yes, these are the times I relish, and really miss as an adult.  But, there is hope.  Hope of passing on some of those seemingly boring, but wonderfully enriching experiences to my own kids.

Back to music – another memory I have of my Dad is from our long car rides that were so thrillingly orchestrated with my Dad’s selection of “on-the-road driving mixes”.  These mixes included the movie scores mentioned above, as well as an awesome selection of western instrumentals (Wyatt Earp, Dances with Wolves, and Themes from Silverado).  It’s funny, because the music really livened up the trip.  The desert hills of Utah and Nevada, and the rolling and “Treesy” (to quote my mother and Grandmother) mountains of Wyoming, Montana and Oregon - would have been FAR more boring and mundane without the sounds of “Big Valley” and “The Magnificent Seven”, or “How the West Was Won” blaring through our modest minivan speakers. J  I even find myself searching to reconnect with the music of my childhood as a way of remembering such wonderful times with my family growing up. This past summer, Ellie and I drove to Lake Tahoe for a family reunion with Jon’s family.  As I was driving through Mammoth, I realized, I needed that wonderful music that used to make these trips like my own movie adventure.  So, thanks to modern technology, while stopping for gas, I used my iphone to these same songs using itunes.  I felt so invigorated and loved driving the long journey with my musical co-pilot.  Ellie slept right through it…perfect. J

For these wonderful additions to my musical repertoire, I say, “Thanks Dad, Pappy, Skipper”!  Thanks for making us expand our musical taste and for introducing us to such a wonderful part of musical culture.

But, my father was not the only one who enriched my musical upbringing.  My mom was also instrumental.  She was the person who always encouraged us to listen to Christian radio.  Don’t get me wrong, I grew up loving (and to this day, still enjoy) Christian radio.  It is a necessary and important resource for providing safe listening for your kids.  But, like any teenager, I wanted to hear the “cool music” that my friends were listening to also.  But, Mom found a way to get us hooked on Christian music.  She introduced us to Christian Pop music, and about that time, the Christian music scene exploded, and artists like DC Talk, Carmen, Newsboys, Jars of Clay, Point of Grace and Michael W. Smith became very accessible.  Every summer, our local Christian radio station, KLRD (now AIR1) hosted a huge summer weekend concert series called "Superfest".  Thousands would convene on the lawns of the Glen Helen Park for the event.  It was really fun!  Sure, my secular music education is severely lacking, but I’m not too worried.  The “good” music; classic hits of every era, are cyclical it seems, and always become popular once again.  J

When I was a little girl, my Mom also encouraged us to learn our Bible verses and Biblical principles through music.  I can still hear a song from “Psalty” and “Charity Church Mouse” and remember the lyrics.  Can I get a shout out for “Music Machine” or “Bulldogs and Butterflies”?  Before the days of Veggie Tales, we listened to “G.T. and the Halo Express”. It’s amazing how music can really bring back a whole host of emotions and memories.  Music is a most definite tool that God has used throughout my life to teach me, encourage me, heal me, and convict me. 

A hug, a kiss, and a huge thanks to my Mom; for really pushing music with core values and character traits that I now hope to share with my children.

Let’s bring this tangent home!  The CD I just received is “Songs from the Beginner’s Bible – by Jodi Benson”.  She was the original voice of Disney’s “The Little Mermaid”. As a child, that movie had just come out, and hearing Ariel sing about Jesus was all I wanted to listen to.  Granted, listening to this 1991 CD in 2011 was a little different that I remembered, but many of the lyrics came flooding back to me.  I was so excited to share my favorites with Ellie, such as the “Creation Story”, and the “Tower of Babel”.  Ellie was so interested! I’m sure it had nothing to do with the fact that her mom was reliving her dreams of being a Disney movie character, and was acting out and singing every song to her.  Nope, no fear here of raising a dramatic daughter! J  But, she really did get excited.  Which just goes to show-you never realize how much your children are watching everything you do!  They are so impressionable, even at such a tender age.  I was so delighted to share a moment of “worship” with my little 1 year old, and was also reminded of how I need to watch my attitude and actions, so that I can do a better job of showing my little one Christ though her broken and redeemed Mommy.

Thank you Jesus, for the gift of music, and the blessing of forgiveness!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Halloween collage-2010

Okay, I can't stop making these Blog collages...so bare with me.  I'm just catching everyone up on the past 6 months that I haven't been blogging. :)

Halloween 2010
Ellie as a butterfly fairy...er, ya, something like that! :) She sure is cute though!!
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My favorite photo shoot pics...

Our family was blessed to go on a Med-School Reunion with some of our buddies this past october. My girlfriend Jenn was gracious enough to bring along her camera, so of course, we made the most of this opportunity! We love how the pics turned out, and many of you may have already gotten a small taste from our Christmas card. Thanks Jenn Merritt! You are the best!



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Holiday Pics!!!

I finally figured out how to use Picasa (thanks Jess) and have posted a few of our favorite holiday photos from 2010.  We celebrated Christmas, and Ellie's 1st birthday, as well as my own!


Christmas Morning at Home

Thanks for my awesome talking puppy Scout, Momma Lori and Poppa Jerry!

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Christmas Eve at Nana Bev's House

A kitchen!!  Now I can help mommy with the dishes!
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Ellie's 1 year Birthday Party!  
She LOVED seeing her guests, opening her gifts, and eating homemade Red Velvet Cupcakes! 
(An Allen family tradition)

Sunday, January 2, 2011

A Fresh Start...


So, in the hours that passed from Dec. 31st, 2010 to Jan. 1st, 2011 – I became recharged, renewed and ready to embrace my new goal “INVEST” for 2011.  I started by jotting down a few personal goals for myself, and even though it’s only been a day, I feel rejuvenated. 

  I have been in a slump the past couple of weeks.  Partially due to pregnancy fatigue, feeling blah, and recovering from a never-ending cold.  And partially from being anxious about all that must happen in our lives throughout the next 6 months.  It’s almost like when I have a lot to think about and gear up for…without having to tools to tackle the problem…I get paralyzed with complacency.  I sit around and do nothing, until my body finally cries out for productivity!

  I remember a specific instance where this was the case, at the very start of my relationship with Jon.  He was in Germany playing basketball for a season, and his brother Caleb and I had gone over to visit and stay with him for about 6 weeks.  Well, all there was to do was work out at the local gym (the gym where Arnold’s trainer still worked out), eat, play video games or watch movies, go check email at the University computer lab, and sleep.  Although, most of our free time was spent doing movies, games, eating or sleeping because many shops closed at odd times, it’s was January and freezing, and gas cost a fortune.  Anyway, I had been there about a week, and I was starting to go stir crazy.  I needed something to do.  A project.  The boys were totally content to sleep in till noon, work out, eat lunch, play games, eat, watch a movie, sleep…and repeat.  I just couldn’t handle it.  I don’t know why exactly.  I guess I was just used to having more creative hobbies to occupy my time.  Not the boys fault, but none-the-less, everyday around 11am…after sitting in the dark on my bed (we had blackout shades), I would start huffing and puffing, hoping they’d wake up so I could open the blinds. 

So, this slump was sort of like that because I have been feeling unproductive for a couple of months now.  In the past month, I had just finished my usual bout of pregnancy sickness, was hit hard with a bad cold, and then any other available energy I had left was taken up by the holiday craze. 

So, after being to a point of boredom, I finally got over myself, and cleaned my room!  It felt great!  And suddenly, I had purpose again!  I was inspired to work on something else.  I started this blog as a way to occupy my thoughts and keep myself from worrying about things beyond my control (and let’s be honest…everything else as well).  Then I got inspired to finish a project…so I’m working on the digital scrapbook I started of Ellie’s 1st year. 

Now, unfortunately, this seems to be what always happens right as my vacation starts to wind to a close.  It’s like I take some time to rest and recover, then I spend a little time being lazy, and then I realize I’d better have something to show for my time off, and I get to work.  Oh well, at least I didn’t wait till I was already back to school saying “would-a, should-a, could-a”.

Alas, I will accomplish at much as I can this next week, and will leave the rest for another time.  At least I’ve got my spring back in my step.  And if 2nd trimester  proves true as the nesting trimester-I may get more done that I’d planned to do!

Until then…I’m off to scrapbook while my bubs plays games with his brothers, my sweet Ellie rests peacefully, and there is a forecast says snow for the Yucaipa area tonight and tomorrow!  Crossing my fingers!

Friday, December 31, 2010

Transition...


To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven. Eccles. 3:1

On this beautiful New Year’s Eve, I am surrounded by the resolutions, hopes, to-do lists, and wishes of those around me. I was inspired by a dear friend’s blog who has made it her habit to choose a “one-word” resolution each New Year’s. Being a teacher, I am very fond of borrowing a great idea, so I too am going to think of one good word to sum up my resolution goals for the year 2011.

But first, 2010. What an amazing year! At the start of 2010, we were still relishing the sleepless nights of being new parents to our brand new Ellianah, at a mere 17 days old! She has been the main highlight of this year, and Jon and I both have been so humbled, blessed, and overjoyed to experience our sweet baby as she grows and develops a little personality – and my, does she have a personality! I have never enjoyed anything more than the pure joy and delight that comes from doing whatever I can to make Ellie laugh, giggle, or coo – depending on what stage she was throughout this past year! I continually prayed for her to be a joyful baby when she was in my womb, and she is joy personified! She is such an easy, relaxed, peaceful baby. I often pinch myself, thank the Lord for his mercy on this first time mom, and pray that God would simply prepare me for whatever my next little girl will be like!

Ellie celebrated her 1st birthday and it was precious! She is so loved and adored, and it was so special to see how such a sweet little one has already made such an impression on so many. Her smile, her laughter, and her joy are contagious! The one thing that has been increasingly difficult is that I have to leave her to go to work everyday. I know that this is my role at this time, and I will be content. But, I cannot wait to be at home and invest 100% of myself into my little pumpkins!

And by pumpkins, I mean TWO bouncing baby girls! I have spent the last third of 2010 pregnant with baby girl #2, and I am already praying how God will use this little one. I am already struggling with trying not to assume she’ll be another Ellie Rose. I want to give her the opportunity to be her own unique person, with her own set of skills, struggles, and quirks! But, I DO pray that she will be healthy, joyful, and aware that God has created her for great things! I really believe that for each of my girls! God has blessed Jon and I with the task of caring for these precious babies here on Earth. And I can’t wait to see how he’s so carefully knit together each one of their little dreams, hopes and wishes!

Jon has had a tremendous year as well. It is becoming abundantly clear as the years pass by that he was MEANT to be a surgeon! The Lord has so gifted his hands, and although he is perhaps unaware of this, God has transformed not only his mind, but also his heart, and his ability to really care for his patients. He has received many thank you letters and compliments from his patients, colleagues and superiors alike, and I am so proud of him! I remember how shy and unsure of himself he was when he first started med school. His confidence and comfort with “small talk”, new environments, and constant change-have really strengthened his practice as a doctor. I love having been with him through this process since its infancy. And the transformation from man to doctor has been astounding. What an amazingly talented, gifted, skilled, and humble man I married! Thank you Lord for continuing to show me the depth of this man who is not only my best friend and soul mate-but YOUR servant! I pray I can spur him on as he continues to grow in his practice, as seeks how you’ll use him and his skills in this world.

As for me, I have learned so much this year as a child of God, a wife, and a mother. I have really come to terms with some personal demons and struggles. I am sorting through them, and God has been so faithful as I strive to refine myself and be a more Godly mom, wife, and friend. There is so much more “life that has been lived” between the words I’ve just written to sum up my year, but you get the gist. I am a definite work in progress, and the journey keeps getting more and more exciting!

So, my resolution for 2011. What word would be appropriate? Invest…surrender...create…contentment…trust…reach…pursue? So many goals, but I think I will steal my friend’s from last year and start with INVEST. I want to spend 2011 INVESTing in every area of my life. I have many ideas of how this will manifest itself. But I can best think of INVEST with regard to my mind, body and spirit, and all persons and things affected thereby.

I’m exhausted already just thinking about it! ☺